Two years ago I had a beautiful young lady come to me for a reading. She was lost a little, as most who do come to a reading are, looking for guidance. She was in question mostly about her health, as it was at a very young age, she had cancer, and had been in remission, but because her life seemed to be taking on some very dramatic changes in partners, amongst other things, she began to question where her life was going, and if she was becoming ill again.
She had already at a very young age, with much perseverance, rid herself of cancer, and still had the fear embedded within her.
The reading at that time indicated that she was not sick, however there would be someone new coming into her life, a man who she already knew, but soon would take on a more intimate encounter.
This was positive news, nothing at all what she expected, as she walked in my store that day, to confirm if what she was feeling in her being, was a physical indication of being sick, or that she herself was changing.
Her and I over the years stayed connected through random emails, Facebook and invites for any new meditation group I would form. I felt her energy more present with me in the last 6 months, but never knew why, until she text me one day, asking if I would be willing to do Reiki on her, as she had been diagnosed with Cancer again.
She told me she didn’t have much money, which I didn’t mind, and we arranged a small fee, that would take care of gas fair.
When I got to her home, she confirmed to me about the reading so many years ago, and the man was in her life in fact, he was everything she always wanted, and was so happy, but did not understand how it was she had cancer again.
The first session we performed, was for the most part, the energy familiarizing itself with her energy. She did not tell me where she had the cancer, but within moments the energy directed me to the exact place(stomach) So a one hour session along with guided meditation, as she really insisted upon it, within minutes she was out like a light. But the energy directed me also toward her voice, throat, as I began to see images of her with the doctors, and her family, who for the most part was in control of much of the decision-making in this process. She felt like a child, one who was only to be seen, but not heard. (her throat chakra was closed)
She also felt like people were thrusting negative energy on her, and had begun feeling paranoia, as in energy attacks. I gave her some dead sea salt infused with herbs, that would help detox the body, but the herbs were for gossip, and slander, as I already knew before I left my house that day, she would be needing them, along with some tidbits of sage for cleansing. The family dog had to be in the room, and wanted the reiki as well. After the session the dog would cling to me, and I would give the dog Reiki for about 5 minutes, not knowing why.
The second session, she wanted it to be with her boyfriend, showing him the energy effect. It was very important to her to have him involved, and even increased the bonding for both he and her, as I showed him how to bio-scan the body connect to the energy, and remain detached from the outcome as well.
Bio-scanning, is where one takes their hands, raising, them one inch off the body, without touching, to feel the energy field. In this process, through light subtle verges, such as tingling, warm and cold sensations on the hands, it can indicate the place on the body which needs healing. I on the other hand, wanted to make it clear to them, that I was showing him how to do this, not to heal per se, but to feel the energy transaction of him opening up, to receive the experience, becoming aware of the energy, and what I was doing in these sessions, with the Woman He Loves.
It was a great experience for him, and for me, as I felt his confidence in me build, reassuring him that I indeed was not a snake charmer, or conjuring up spirits. lol This allowed for the sessions to continue with a flow, and his permission, infusing the healing process with surrender (which can be very vital, in terms a collaborative healing)
The next session was very discombobulated, to say the least, as the dog(her family pet) wanted to be apart of it, and we had to be in a room where there was much disruption. At first I was annoyed, but then let that go, as I understood everything has its meaning, and purpose, and it wasn’t for me to judge why we found ourselves in such dynamics, but to accept it. She then told me how they found tumors on the dog, and how the dog would never leave her side. It became clear again that this dog was taking on her cancer,(sharing it) as most of the time during the process, she herself had very little pain.. More Reiki on the dog I would do each and every visit. And with the visit to the vet, the dog’s tumors were not malignant. But there was not one session without the dog.. It refused to stay in the other room..
After that session, she had to cancel her weekly visits, as things came up in her life that did not permit her to do so.
I knew then that we would soon be reaching an end, as anytime there are that many interferences it is indication that the energy is not allowing you to move forward in the same way.
As i pulled up into the driveway, I heard the voice, that it is time to drop the seed. I sighed, as I knew that when the energy reached this point, it meant that all the many layers had been pulled away, and that the core needed to be reached. So this session took on a life itself, as I explained to her, that I felt the cancer wanting to leave, however she was still holding on to it. Now no one ever wants to hear those kind of words, and believe me to have to say them does not make me the most favorite person, however before I could leave that day, the energy made itself clear, that they were words she needed to hear. She took them like a trooper, with tears in her eyes, she exclaimed she knew I was right, and felt it within her being, as she knew not how to be anything other “Then the girl with cancer” and was scared of who she would have to become without it.
The next session, I knew would be our last, and so after only about 20 minutes of Reiki itself, I stopped, brought her back and said its time to really face this.. I began what is called EFT, emotional freedom technique, which i have found to be quite effective in many of my sessions. I had to get her to proclaim many things, hidden fears, and hidden truths.
In eft, you start with the lowest threshold, meaning what someone is willing to accept and what they are not, until you build to the ultimate discovery (digging) I cannot tell you what the words were, as the energy just leads me to what needs to be said, and proclaimed. But what i can tell you, is that for the most part it had to be clear that if she did not face who she was, without cancer, then she would in fact be facing death.
How grim this sounded to even have to say the words, to have her say them. Yet it is exactly what needed to be said, and as I watched her wanting to hold back the emotional outburst, I grabbed her hands and told her to let it go. The tears gave way like a flood gate of emotions, a real moment in her life, where she knew her own live hung in the balance of her fears.
This is not the easy aspects of healing, its hard raw stuff, and most cant or wont accept it, even becoming angry with me, not talking to me at all, because of it. Yet I love them enough to be deemed the bad guy, to be seen as someone who is saying the most horrible of things.. For the most part showing them the Shadow of Reiki, the shadow of themselves.
I held her in my arms, as much as she would allow me to, and ended the session, knowing I would not return.
She later called me as i suspected telling me she could not see me anymore, as funds had become even tighter. I told her i loved her and wished her the best.
Today something told me to text her, and I did. She told me the cancer was gone, and that she really missed me. And although it was hard to accept what occurred in that session, it really gave her a sense of empowerment of herself, and so she did just that (took back her) She said I see my life now as being more “Then just the girl with cancer”
I am taking better care of my body, and feel more energy, eating healthy, and taking back who I am..
I asked her if i could share this story, as I felt it was important for people to know that Reiki, and healing isn’t all peace, love and light. That in these sessions they are raw, and it takes someone willing to really face themselves to allow for the healing process to begin. She enthusiastically said yes, please share.
Today she has no cancer. Today her life has a new perception, one she can now see, as a result of willing to see the dark side of her own being, and bring forth the light of her own beauty, in knowing herself.
I am so proud of her, so happy for her.. As what she did was not easy. But she did it.. Not me, not the REiki, not anything, but herself..
I thank you anonymous beautiful young lady, (you know who you are, reading this) for allowing me to be apart of your empowerment.. It makes this work worth doing..
Much love
Misty